Everything Will Be Better When …

You may not think it out loud to yourself, but I wonder if you secretly wish for something.
Get quiet with yourself for a moment and feel your desires …
Feel them …

 

I had a revelation this morning as I was reading my latest book. I’ve been in a pattern of physical pain for quite some time and every morning, I wonder if this will be the day that I am actually set free.

I go to bed at night hoping that the next morning, I will awake with the freedom that I desperately seek and every morning, up till now, I have been denied the relief that I seek. My heart sinks. My god … another fucking day of pain! How am I going to show up today and how am I going to appreciate this place in time in my life?!Pain 1

It’s an honest question and quite frankly, I’m a little disgusted with myself. I try to be spiritual and for all of the challenges I have been through, I feel so deserving of healing. I’m just being honest.

This pain isn’t just translated into my physical body. It’s manifested in the world around me. Death, destruction, catastrophes, fear and … pain!

I try to shut it out, scroll past or close my eyes but … it’s ALWAYS there!

I could blame the world on their inability to let shit go but the truth is, I’m holding onto mine so how could I possibly expect anyone else to let go? I can’t seem to!

And then it hits me this morning … what is my belief about my pain? I’ve written on the subject of “Belief” and taught about it and now, I’m being invited to acknowledge what I believe about my pain.

‘Everything will be better when’ … my pain is gone! That is what I have been believing … hoping!

If I’m looking for the day that my physical pain does not haunt me every day and I keep looking for that day, how can it ever possibly show up? I mean, there is only Now and I keep looking for that ‘Some day’ to show up and it has not. I’m looking for it in the future and all there ever is, is Now. There is no future except the story I tell myself about what I want, that I do not feel I have now.

My freedom is right here, right now and if I keep looking into the future for it, validation will show up but only 100% of the time. My healing has to be in the future because that is where I’ve been looking for it, only the future NEVER shows up!

I was broadsided by this revelation. I keep thinking that someday I’ll be set free and the only place that freedom can be is Now.

So then I have to ask myself, do I really want it now? massage

This is where things get interesting because if I had to be honest with myself, I do love therapy. I love the way I can slide into an appointment, surrender myself to the therapist and just escape from my thoughts. I let go and let someone else perform their talents on me and all the while, I keep hoping that when my session is finished, that I feel better and that I am healed. What if I am healed, will I miss therapy? Will I need therapy?

This is another good question. If I am free from pain, then therapy is not necessary and then what?

What if I am right where I am because I like it, because it suits me, because it supports me? I might as well get honest with myself. I like therapy and the only reason I would continue therapy is because I think I need it and if I do not need it any longer, then why would I quit?

I suppose this is what drug addiction or any another addiction is. The only thing I know is how to navigate my pain and so the cycle continues. What happens when I let go of the pain? What happens when I quit believing the story I tell myself about my pain? The cycle ends and that is a little unsettling. How will I identify with myself then?! pain 2

For me, I’ve identified with the pain for so long, I’m not sure I know who I am without it and change is not always easy. Even if I think I really want to be set free, I have not invited freedom to join me in the area of my physical being. And so … I continue on with therapy perhaps until I’m ready to let go.

A friend asked me once if therapy heals me. I was impressed by this question because we both work in the same field of physical therapy and now she’s asking me if therapy heals me.

No” I said. “Therapy gives me a reprieve from myself for a brief moment in time so that I can take a breath and surrender the pain to someone else”.

Isn’t that interesting? I don’t believe therapy heals me and yet I use it as a tool to help me work through my stuff. How long do I continue therapy? I don’t know … how could I possibly know how long it is going to take for me to let go? Surrender 3

Being in the physical therapy profession, I understand that there are those who would argue that some therapy is needed or required, especially in cases of knee replacement, hip and shoulder replacement, surgery and such, but even then, I’m not sure. Every patient that comes through the door is sent home with a set of exercises … basically the same exercises they do when they come to see me.  I have the idea that every person knows how to heal their own body. They, like me, just choose to surrender it to someone else in order to breathe, or perhaps we don’t trust ourselves enough to navigate our healing on our own.

I sincerely have to appreciate that! We’re not weak or incapable. Perhaps we’re just tired, scared or out of touch with our Divine selves. Perhaps there’s a lot of static that is distorting the link or channel that taps us in to our infinite wisdom. We’re all so wise, really! We have ALL of the answers to every question there ever was in this Universe … this experience. We all are capable of being free from all of the pains that get us bogged down.

And in this moment, I just want to fall in love with what is and appreciate the unfolding or the realizing of all that I am. When I give gratitude to every moment … to pause and say, “Thank you” just for the privilege to breathe, to see, to feel, to taste to … experience all of the sensations of this life, I am free.

Join me, won’t you? Invite all of the possibilities in this moment. Set the future … the “Everything will be better when’s” free, let them go, and appreciate. Say “Thank you” for the privilege of this moment. Now 2

I’m glad you’ve joined me.
We’re currently experiencing Now.
Isn’t it spectacular?!
Thank you ♥

 

 

Letting Go Of The Truth

I’ve discovered that Truth is like the end of the rainbow. I can see it from a distance but it can never be approached and it can never be caught. It keeps changing distances and every step to get me closer, just pushes it that much further away. Keep chasing it and I have soon to realize that there is no catching it.

 

Mom has been deceased for over 5 years now. As a child of a woman who was on a continuous and relentless search for the “Truth”, she died never having a solid answer. Lord knows, she spent most of her life seeking.

I really never understood Mom’s quest. At the time, I was very content with my own beliefs that were wrapped within one Book and my understanding of Truth was nothing like hers. I had found my “Truth”. All I had to do was open the Book, read and follow the directions as I understood them.

Now that she has been gone for 5 plus years, I’ve said “Good-bye” to so much of my life that I identified with, and my resolve that I had found the Truth, has dissolved and opened door after door to the discovery that there is so much more to my experience than I ever imagined. Now that I myself am on my own  “Relentless search for the Truth”, I have ultimately reached a place of letting go.

I’ve discovered that Truth is like the end of the rainbow. I can see it from a distance but it can never be approached and it can never be caught. It keeps changing distances and every step to get me closer, just pushes it that much further away. Keep chasing it and I have soon to realize that there is no catching it.Rainbow

Truly, it’s magical to have beliefs that form our Truth. Our entire world will surround us and continually show us opportunity after opportunity to validate and firmly establish that Truth.  We dance with it, converse with it, make love to it and accept it as …Truth. And with this Truth, we can sit back, take a deep breath and feel comfortable that everything in our world of understanding makes some kind of sense.

But what happens when our world begins to shift? In my case, the death of my mother that quickly followed the death of a career and “Empty Nest Syndrome” and then two years later, the death of a sister, I began to let go of attachments. After all, attachments were just a set up for pain. If the attachment passes or goes away, what then? Do I attach to something else, or do I learn to be a little more fluid?

It’s interesting to be witness to the current happenings in this experience of mine. Since I have allowed myself to gain 30 pounds, validation is showing up. Now, I see plus size models in magazines … including Sports Illustrated! I’m seeing more and more strikingly beautiful women who are the same size as myself, being presented more and more often to me. They are validating my new size, and giving me permission to own it and feel good about it.

Same situation since I’ve allowed my hair to go grey. I’ve recently heard the phrase, “Grey is the new blond.” How amazing is that?! There again … validation! I never saw it before, but now that I am playing along, more and more opportunities are showing up to validate my new way of being.

It’s interesting to see those who express fears, frustrations and dissatisfaction with the current state of affairs. From the president, to animal neglect and abuse, to world disasters as well as injustices being performed with our food supply, our truth is deliciously being validated with each and every story being presented to confirm that what we believe to be Truth, is actually and indeed Truth and all the while, we are playing along in either happiness, fear or hate!

As much time as we put into our beliefs about anything, the more validation will show up to solidify our Truth. We put our energy into it and presto! Validation shows up!

Just because we want something to change, as long as we buy into the story, validation will continue to win. Wanting something to change merely confirms that there is something wrong and when we feel the need to change it, it must persist because we are putting our energy into it.

When something is wrong and needs to be fixed, it will always be wrong and need to be fixed until we have healed from our pain or decide that it is not worth our time and we move on. Does that make it all go away? Not necessarily but … you’ve let it go and now it just doesn’t matter any longer. It’s slowly losing energy and at some point, it will desist.

This is a difficult concept to adopt. It’s painfully difficult because if we let it go, then how will we identify with ourselves? And yet, it may be causing us pain, fear and frustration but no matter, we believe it to be true (Truth) and so it must persist and identity is acknowledged. Do we need an identity? Do we need to feel validated? Do we need to be important? Do we need … to fit?

Is change necessary? No, not really because change would usher in the confirmed illusion that something needs to be changed and so, the cycle continues.

 

ReleasePerhaps our greatest opportunity is to let go … let go of what appears to be Truth and instead, rest on the comforts that our identity does not depend on holding onto something, but rather letting everything go. How can one man’s Truth be right and another man’s Truth be wrong? We’re all in this together so who is right and who is wrong? This … THIS … IS AN UNENDING, CONTINUOUS BATTLE AND NO ONE EVER WINS FOREVER! Battles may be won, but next year, next month, next week, next day … another battle shows up to give us opportunity to fight once again to confirm that something is wrong and we need to fix it!

Feel this my loves. Feel the pain, the resistance, the constant energetic expense of continuously fighting for something that is temporary and fleeting … only to win or lose and then … start the process all over again. Our identity could be that of a warrior or a victorious conqueror and we may covet that identity for our entirety but will that validate and confirm for us a status of importance? Or will it create a space for us to fit into so that we can feel secure in our identity?

Don’t worry. Letting go of the Truth won’t cost you anything you aren’t ready to let go of. You won’t lose anything except fear, judgment, pain and need. Instead, you will gain freedom, joy, pleasure and peace.

If your path invites you to continue resisting, fighting and battling some cause, give yourself permission to take the ride and discover all that excites you and help you discover your essence. Perhaps you’re working through some pain and it requires you to submerge yourself in the battle to discover your unlimited potential and arrive at healing. And when you’ve reach your limit and you’re ready to let go of defining who you are by the battles you’ve fought, whether you’ve won or not and your tired and weary, then you can decide if it’s time to let go of the Truth of who you think you are.tug-of-war 1

Feel the release … feel it and when you do, you’ll begin to notice the amazing world around you. Rather than focusing on an outcome, you’ll simply observe all of the choices. Which one will you take? May I suggest taking the one that feels good and right rather than a choice with an expected outcome that may never give you what you expect? Choosing what feels good gives you permission to live authentically and without remorse. Choosing what you think you should in order to obtain a desirable outcome, opens the door to disappointment and then making another choice to fix it.

As a result, you’ll discover that all of your needs will be met … all of them! You’ll discover that your identity is not wrapped up in things or causes but rather in the Divine flow of life. You’ll discover that you do not have to work so hard to get what you want. Instead, it will miraculously show up right when you need it. You’ll also discover that everything in the Universe is designed to support you. Everything in your experience is carefully crafted to shape for you a soul satisfying experience and all you have to do is stay open to the flow and receive all that you require.Flow

Get clear about what you want and make all of your decisions on what feels good and right for you. When you do, the Universe will pave the way and you’ll find that there are no open or closed doors. There’s only the flow … the flow that caries you along in life and is intent on supporting you and taking care of you. Doesn’t that sound marvelous?!

 

 

Mirror * Mirror

What did you see …

When you said that I’m “Looking good … real good”?

What did you see when you said that I was a talented artist, a good writer or a valuable helper?

I hear you say that I am a “Flower child” or that I am “Zen”, and the best of all, “You are amazing!”  But … what does that really mean? Is it because of what I do or who I am? I’m not sure I know the difference.

I caught you looking at me out of the corner of your eye. I felt the penetration of your gaze and I became very uncomfortable. Do I shoot you a look and cause you to own your thoughts for you have been busted, or do I keep on walking pretending not to notice? Perhaps I will keep on walking. I do not like confrontation … not one little bit!

Tell me what caused you to look … to hold your gaze … to pause and watch? Why did you say those lovely words to me and what did they really mean? I mean … are they true … really?

Was it my hair that I carefully styled to represent the outer beauty that I wished to express? After all, my hair is sightly enough that it requires its own zip code. You know … I put just the right color on it so that my features are beautifully enhanced and my true age is disguised. Did you know that? I hope not …

Was it the way I carried myself with my petite body where the fashion I chose for the day invited the observer to acknowledge my small, dangerously, curvy frame and fierce sense of style? Oh god … I spend so much energy on this quality of myself. Did you notice? Did you approve?

Was it the way I carefully painted the make-up on my face in order to reveal youth and beauty? I’m an artist, you know? I’ve become quite skilled at disguising my imperfections. Did you notice that?  I’m pretty proud of my work!

My teeth … are nearly perfect! Straightened by an experienced orthodontist and whitened by my dentist … was that what you saw about me or perhaps my smile that lit up my face giving me a twinkle in my eye that showed my love and humor? My laughter draws attention … I can feel it! That combined with my smile is a winning combination. I hope you noticed …

I used to be a physical fitness queen, you know? Were you able to see any clues or evidence of my previously perfect body? I was committed to aerobics 5 days a week and weight training 3 days a week along with bike rides, hiking in the mountains and walks around the block. I try so hard to reveal evidence of my best features. As a matter of fact, it consumes me … consumes me! I hope you noticed some evidence that I still care about my body.

I want to know!

I want to know what you saw. I’ve taken great time and gifted talent to pull this look together so that you will look at me with approval. Did you approve? Was there something you would have changed about me? Was there?! If so, what would that be? ….. No wait!

Please don’t tell me! I do not want to know! Instead, I will try harder to look my very best. I will try harder to create the disguise so that you will notice me, love me, accept me and not judge me. I will try harder …

But really … REALLY, what I want to know is …

Did you see me?

Did you see Me?! … ME!!!

Did you see my vulnerability? Did you see my shyness and my lack of confidence?66a1ee1e35013f203753819390939815

Did you see my fears? Those dark places in my life that I hide behind for fear of exposure. I’m afraid of failure, judgment, pain and the deep need to be accepted. Did you see that?

Did you see my past? I have wounds that have healed and what is left is a shimmery scar that I’m rather proud of. It’s tougher tissue, you know? I think I’ve healed quite nicely.

Did you see my pain? It’s right there … right under the surface of confidence and the self-expression of wisdom. I can disguise it pretty well and maybe you didn’t see it. I hope not and yet … I hope you did.

Did you see my life experiences that brought me to my knees … that molded and shaped my character? People have said things that caused me to coil and retreat. People have left me in this life leaving me feeling vulnerable and weak. I never wanted them to leave me, but they did. Did you see that? Did you see that I was raised by a single parent? Did you see that I had to grow up early because I felt I was supposed to? Did you see that I never really was a child; I was a little adult in a child’s body? I’ve been mature my whole life! Did you see that?

Did you see my sensitive heart that craves love … needs to be loved for who I am … not who I present myself to be? Did you see that?

Did you see my spirit that wants to break free from the chains and rules that I set for myself … to protect myself … to be accepted? Did you see that?

Did you see my soul … that eternal being that has lived lifetime after lifetime or perhaps only this lifetime? Deep within, there is an All Knowing presence that guides me and leads me on my path … showing me the way. Did you see that?

Could you see my wisdom, my talents, my gifts, my love, my sensitivity and my passion … my PASSION! Did you see that?

I will never know what you really saw because I could not see it in myself. I wanted you to see me but the truth is, I could not see myself. I still cannot fully see myself. I want to. I want to know myself. I want to see my inner beauty. I want to see my eternal soul that has lived from the beginning of time and will continue on into forever. I want to see that! I want to fall madly in love with me … all of me … all of the hidden places that have been protected. I want to fall madly and passionately in love with the pain, the fears, the parts that I think ugly. I want to fall in love with my soul, my spirit, my vitality, my creativity and my true, eternal essence. I also want to know me intimately, passionately, lovingly and so accepting of all that is about me. I want that … I really want that!

I wanted you to see me because … I could not see myself and so … if you could see something about me that I could not see, then I could be happy and at peace with who I am. Maybe I could even love that part of myself and for some strange reason, I gave you the power to give that to me … I gave you permission to hold my power.

How could you possibly give me all the things I desired for myself? You could not give me what I thought I needed to feel accepted and loved because the truth is, you are just a reflection of all that I am and the only thing you can return to me are the things that I recognize and accept about myself … nothing more, nothing less. It would not matter what you saw because unless I believe it about myself … unless I can see and acknowledge it within myself, it will never be so for me. I know this! I know this! … And yet, how can I know this but not be able to receive it?! Perhaps I’m ready now …

It is time for me. It is time for me to shed my outer shell, that outer layer of disguises and false characters that have traveled day after day with me … holding me together. They are old and feeble now and they cannot perform the task any longer. They are tired … so, so tired and they want … no they need to be put to rest.

It’s time for me to knock down walls that I put up to shield me … to protect me. They are getting cracked and crumbly and are falling down anyway. I might as well push them over and leave them at rest. I’m tired of building walls … so, so tired. Perhaps it’s time to face all of my challenges and pains and let them love me and remind me of who I really am. I’m ready for that.

It’s time to break all of my rules … the rules I made to protect me and support me in all of the illusions of life. Come to think of it, no one else had the kind of rules I lived by. I was very hard on myself. I was very disciplined and robotic at times. Damn!!! I kept a tight leash on me. I’m surprised I’m not strangled!

And now …

It is time to fall madly in love … passionately in love … eternally in love … with all that I am. It’s time to recognize all of the qualities of myself and get intimate with all of the nuances, subtle caresses and little quirks that have stayed in the shadows because my disguises and rules never allowed them to be present.

It’s time to spread my wings and fly … releasing any weight that may be holding me down. I’ve always wanted to fly! I’ve even dreamed about it where I could soar above the fields and flower beds captivated and marveling at the beauty of it all. I give myself permission to do that now in my life. I invite the freedom of flight and the expanse of the Universe to travel to. I can hardly wait to see what’s out there! I’m so excited!!!9daf412987d57214ec98361bd63160ea

And lastly but certainly not the very least, I would like to thank myself for creating moments in my life that have brought me to this space and time. I also want to forgive myself for any ill thoughts, physical and emotional abuse that I may have inflicted during my growing years and any pain I may have caused others. I know that any and all of those spaces, places and moments in my life were just in preparation for this very moment and I stand in gratitude for all of them. They were all gifts that I acknowledge, receive and I embrace them all, in love.

I love you Noël Cannon! I love everything about you! I love your soul … the essence of who you are. I love your physical body with all of its uniqueness and fierce individuality! I love your talents, gifts and passions. I love all of your creations and all that you will continue to create for life is a creation process. I love your relationships and the people in your life … all of them! I love the spaces that cause reflection and introspection and I love the spaces that invite movement and action.

Each day, I fall more and more in love with this life and the places that I get mad at or the places that I am angry, I love them too. They are only spaces that invite more love and so I will love them all.

Yes … it’s time to release and fall in love all over again. Today is a new day. I am eternally in love!

 

 

 

 

The Creator

When the Artist says, “I am the Creator! I created this work of art” and the work of art says, “I am a work of art, the Creator created me and I create my world”, who then, is the C r e a t o r?

What happens in your world when you hear or read something that causes you to look at your life differently? Are we ever really the same after being presented with new ideas that set into motion a different way of thinking and believing?  Read on …

We see millions of people around us. We see nature, we see the creatures of the earth and we see places, objects and things. We can taste the most decadent and delicious of foods as well as the most vile and nasty. We can touch things that soothe and comfort and we can touch things that cause us to coil and retract. We listen to music and symphonies that can stir the soul and we can hear sounds that cause our nerves to seize up in anguish. We see the past that continues to reveal itself through the findings of dinosaurs, long lost cities, skeleton remains, literature, and music, all surrounding us revealing convincing evidence of a past that we were not here for and what remains is convincing evidence of a time long gone. We hear predictions for our future from those who possess the gift of ‘Seeing’. Life appears and seems so real because the entire experience is felt.

Perhaps we meditate and pray and receive messages and information that we accept and then administer to our life that supports our walk. Maybe we had a Past Life Regression session and discovered another incarnation. Perhaps in this regression we discovered that we were living out another experience, here on Earth and we left a trail that led us to this current place and time. All of this could certainly support why we are here … we just evolved to this place and time … from one incarnation to another. As the messages become clear and validated, we begin to recognize that perhaps there are angels, spirit guides and ancestors on the other side of our physical being that guide us and show us the way. ‘Signs and wonders’ it’s sometimes called.

Edgar Casey shared in his experiences that we are all reincarnated and we are living out our Karma. Some of his studies revealed past life wrongs that are beckoning to be righted in this lifetime. The cause of one’s pain is due to something they experienced in a previous life and Karma is inviting them in this lifetime to correct it. Or maybe you’re gifted in some area of your life like art or communication that is a reflection of past lives that you have been conditioning and practicing to express fully in this incarnation.

And yet the question beckons, is ANY of it real? Is it true?

It’s a legitimate question. After all, the evidence is there. Science is still uncovering amazing discoveries that prove our presence in this lifetime. Spiritually we are becoming more and more aware of another realm … another space that occupies our current reality. Every time we go searching, we are making astounding discoveries that are deeply enriching our lives and convincing us that we are not alone. Perhaps in these discoveries we find that there are those who came before us who designed and created lives and left a mark on history centuries before our time that left clues to help us navigate this place and time.

Are you following through this compelling bit of information? Why would we question the evidence? Why would we question the clues that offer up convincing evidence to all of our searching?

And yet, if you are open to questioning all that you see, hear, feel, touch, taste and experience the next question could be … What if?

What if … ALL of it is an illusion that you created before you incarnated into this lifetime? Lifes illusion
Is that possible? Is it possible that you programed the entire experience to support your time here … in this incarnation? You may think all of it is real, spirits, people, places, history, the creatures, the air you breathe, the molecules and atoms that make up matter, the weather, the earth, the planets,  the catastrophes and the miracles but …

What if it’s all a convincing illusion that you created before entering into this incarnation?

Does this question blow your mind?! Perhaps you’re throwing it straight out the window because it’s just too preposterous! Or perhaps, it makes some kind of sense and if it does, it just may twist you up a bit to awaken you to the illusion of it all.

If you check in with your soul, the intimate part of you that’s infused into every fiber of your being, that part of you that you can feel deeply and know without a shadow of doubt that you have always existed, you’ll be guided … all the way back … to the beginning … the beginning of time. You have always been since the beginning of time. YOU! Does that make YOU the ONLY one? If “In the beginning God created” … could it be possible that it was YOU who created?! If you’ve always been and you will always be, then you must have started in … the ‘Beginning’.

“In the beginning God created” …

You may be saying to yourself, “But what about all the other people, animals, creatures, spirits, souls, ancestors and beings; what about them … if I’m the only One?” And in that instant, in that very same breath … you may be separating yourself from all that is. Can you see that? Can you feel that?

All that you see, hear, experience, feel, taste and touch is YOUR creation!

Sit with that for a minute. Feel that for a minute and let it speak to the Truth you seek.

What if … you actually are … God/Creator/Spirit? Feel this for a moment …

It has been taught in the Church that “God created man for fellowship”. The bible also states that “Man was created in the image of God”, (Genesis 1:27). If you are God, do you think that creating other beings … man, in your image, would be an opportunity to enrich the experience? And what if man, is a direct reflection of all that you are here to experience … to offer you ‘Fellowship’?

It has been taught also that there is no outside experience separate from what’s within. Whatever you see, feel and experience out there is a direct reflection of what’s inside.Lifes reflection

How will you view your world with this awareness if you choose to accept what wisdom it imparts to you? How will you celebrate your life? How will you handle your challenges? How will you live your life?

The guy that pisses you off when he cuts in front of you as you travel down the road is YOUR creation!

The multi-millionaire that makes all the money that you can only dream about is YOUR creation!

World hunger, disease, politics, science, music, nature, language and art … are all YOUR creation! Your perception of the past and the future is all YOUR creation … your illusion.

How will you look at your world if you chose to accept what you have created? Will you fall in love with it? Will you embrace your life and everything and everyone in it? Will you see just how incredible and perfect you really are and how much love you possess because you are the Creator? All there really is, is love. You are love!

Or will you be bitter that as the Creator, your life lacks abundance, happiness and joy? Will you emotionally beat yourself up because you are perfect and yet you do not see it or feel it? Will you act as a victim to all of the injustices in this life because you do not recognize the power you have as the Creator?

And yet … it’s all so incredibly PERFECT! Your creation is so amazingly perfect in every way! Your experience is perfect in every way! You are living the life that you designed, you are experiencing EVERYTHING you came here for and in the end … at the end of it all … this lifetime … this experience, this illusion … YOU WIN!!!

YOU WIN because you are the C r e a t o r!

Awakening to Wisdom

‘Perhaps it is not the Wisdom that others see and acknowledge but rather recognizing their own Truth wrapped in her words and actions. Perhaps others wish the same Wisdom for themselves and she will kindly tell them, “You’ve had it all along and you always will, for you cannot acknowledge Wisdom in me unless you possess it within yourself, simply because there is no ‘Out there’, there is only ‘Within’. ‘

 

 Much time has passed.

She looks in the mirror and she does not recognize the reflection looking back at her.

There is sadness in her eyes and heaviness to her face that leaves her expressionless …

and wondering …

What happened to the sparkle in those eyes? What happened to the smile? What happened to the lift and brightness to her skin? Where did she go? She does not see the person in the reflection that she recognized for so many years. Perhaps that person is no longer.

There’s a bit of remorse as she studies the image … not so much because she misses that familiar face or that image, for she knows that person must step aside for the transformation. She misses the certainty of who she thought she was or who she thought she saw. She cannot deny the person or image and what it represented in the past, but where she’s going now, that person, that image, that belief of what was, can no longer be. She graduated and now she must move on and stand in the shadows for the “Awakened One” to emerge. Certainty is gone and replaced with uncertainty. Now what?! What can she trust in? What’s in her future? Where is she going? Who is she becoming?

It’s a process … the Awakening. For just like a good night’s rest full of dreams, images and feelings of being in another land, only to awaken in the morning and feel somewhat between worlds where only a good cup of coffee or a brisk morning shower has the power to snap her back into consciousness, the Awakening brings her to a similar place.

It’s a place where she feels held in suspension from the world that seemed so familiar and a world that she feels called to but does not fully recognize. Somehow that stiff cup of coffee or that brisk morning shower seems void of the cure to snap her back to reality and offer that warm embrace that gave her solace and security.

As she navigates the illuminated times in daylight and activity she realizes that she is not the same person. She’s been growing through some pain from her past … from her childhood … even perhaps from a previous life and now she emerges on the other side to a place of unfamiliarity and healing.

She looks in the mirror yet again and realizes that she has been living in an illusion. All of the primping and grooming that she used to engage intransformation daily was all in vain. In her attempt to create an image that she can live with, an image that invited her to feel satisfaction, to feel pretty, to feel needed … to feel loved, she was willing to apply the disguise. She needed to be loved and accepted and to show up for that, she felt she needed to create an illusion of her greater self in order to feel whole and complete. She felt beautiful when she saw her image yet she was never really sure if the love and attention that she received was because of all her laborious acts to gain acceptance of her illusion of beauty or if it was because she could really be seen for who she truly was? She was never really sure. Perhaps it was time for her to test her uncertainty and find her truth that rested below the surface of the illusion.

Can the sparkle in her eyes still be present even if the illusion of make-up was not there?

What color is her hair … really, without the disguise of a bottled concoction? If she grew out the dyed strands and allowed her natural strands of silver to emerge, could she still feel the love for herself? Could she still feel beautiful?

What would happen if she allowed her body to take shape, giving herself permission to eat what she liked and do the activities that she really wanted to do rather than the ones she felt she needed to do in order to keep herself in the bondage of discipline?

Discipline is so combative, so abusive, so degrading … so damaging.  Discipline says, “You’re not good enough! You MUST change!”

To clothe herself was truly an art! Just how creative could she be in her wardrobe in order to draw attention? Her beautifully sculpted body was perfectly enhanced by the costume of clothing and yet underneath, she felt like she was a liar; a cheat. If anyone ever really saw her flesh, would they gasp in surprise at all of its imperfections?!

Who was she when she set herself free from ALL the rules … rules that she made for herself in order to be accepted … in order to be loved … in order to embrace who she really was?

Some would say, “Oh my god, she’s let herself go!”

If you ask her what is happening that she allowed herself to get to this place of release she will tell you, “I’ve set myself free!”

Oh and how free it is!!! How very free!!!

The Awakening is a transforming process. It does not happen overnight and she was continuously challenged to compare old beliefs with the new ones and finding rest in what felt right for her. Living in a society where individuality is frowned upon because one appears so different than the others, requires a conviction to trust the internal compass that guides her. At this point in her life, there absolutely was no room for denying that very thing that grabbed her and had her in the clutches of change. It was inescapable. Going back was NEVER an option for the pull of the unknown had a hypnotic effect that kept her searching and searching.Freedom

Something miraculous is happening to her as she accepts the Awakening … the Transformation. If the truth be known, it’s the very thing she sought ever since she read the book of Solomon in the Bible years and years ago. When King David died and Solomon was to take over as king, Solomon asked God for wisdom and discernment above all other things. For he knew if he was wise and discerning, he would always walk in truth. She knew that was the answer to all of the questions she sought in her life … ‘Wisdom’. At that moment, she craved Wisdom above all other gifts.

Wisdom is a rich path. It’s a path laced with an undeniable truth and yet Wisdom will always invite perspective which by the way, is subject to interpretation. What is Truth for one, may not be Truth for another and yet when one follows their own Wisdom, their Truth will always guide them.

She may be wiser then she has ever been and her Wisdom may be her personal guide, the result is walking in her sacred Truth. Others may see her Wisdom as a virtue however she sees it as her direct connection to God. When she listens, trusts and intuits her Wisdom, she walks with uncompromising peace and conviction.

Perhaps it is not the Wisdom that others see and acknowledge but rather recognizing their own Truth wrapped in her words and actions. Perhaps others wish the same Wisdom for themselves and she will kindly tell them, “You’ve had it all along and you always will, for you cannot acknowledge Wisdom in me unless you possess it within yourself, simply because there is no ‘Out there’, there is only ‘Within’.

We all are wise beyond our own comprehension. We all have an internal compass that points the needle in the direction we’re destined to go. When we drop the disguises, when we listen, when we’re ready to awaken and when we’re ready to drop the illusion, Wisdom will emerge and show us the way to our Truth.

May you seek your Truth, walk in your own Wisdom and find your inner peace. You may not recognize yourself for a while but that’s okay. There are some things we just need to let go of in order for the new to emerge … the Awakening … the Transformation. Things, ideas and images must die off or be set aside. Old beliefs and patterns that we found comforting and reliable, must GO! They are no longer needed or necessary. As you awaken and as you seek your Truth, guaranteed, you’ll enter a new land that will be unrecognizable.

awakening 3Embrace you’re Wisdom and it will always guide you to your Truth … for you are wiser then you have ever known. Maybe it’s time to discover just how wise you truly are and allow an uncompromising peace to rein in your life.

I Didn’t Sign Up For this!

“Could it be that you signed up for this life … you and God? Could it be that you agreed to have this experience?”

Have you ever contemplated who you were before you came into existence?

Have you ever wondered if this is the only time you’ve ever been alive?

Who were you before you came into being?

Have you ever spent time wondering how long you’ve been in existence? Was it just this space and time or were there others and if there were others, who were you and what were you doing?

What if you sat down with God/ Spirit/ Creator before coming into this lifetime, and mapped out a course for your life? I’ve never known God to be a dictator but maybe God is and you were told how things were going to be for you or maybe perhaps, God is a negotiator, a mentor, a guide and you both planned together.

What if you and God decided what time you would come in, who you would be, what kind of life you would live, what nationality you would be, what kind of personality you would have, who your parents would be, what kind of experiences you would have, and so on … and so on …

As life unfolded, you may have formed opinions about life’s circumstances based on either others perceptions that you adopted or guards, shields and filters that you put up to protect yourself but if you are an eternal being, what exactly are you protecting?

They say that we have freedom of choice but I wonder… what if we made all of the choices before we came in and now we are living them out in full color.

If it’s true that we are the creator of our own destiny, we walk our own path, we make our own choices and we are the ONLY one who can live our life, can it be possible that it is absolutely perfect and our perception of what is, is actually our own design?

Do we love ourselves or do we hate ourselves for choosing such a path? If we’re in pain, we could choose to hate ourselves and hold ourselves accountable for such an ill justice or put the blame on someone else and adopt the roll of ‘Victim’. After all, we would never choose such a life for ourselves, right? Or … would we?

If … you and God chose this path, if you knew that you are an eternal being, if you can feel and interpret that you have always been in existence, then perhaps you can stop beating yourself up, abusing yourself, cursing your life, hating people who do you wrong and get a glimpse that you are absolutely perfect, created in the image of God and since God is Love, then … you are too. YOU ARE LOVE!

If you believe that God is love, you may spend your entire life discovering just what that means but perhaps, it isn’t discovering God’s love but rather learning to take ownership of the love that we actually are and accepting all that we are and all that we came here to experience. Instead of beating ourselves up because we hate our lives, we could see that we actually ARE the love of God, we ARE eternal beings and we ARE living out an experience that is divine and perfect, custom designed by you and God.

Perception can mess us up! We can perceive people, circumstances and happenings in our lives as bad, unfortunate, the Devil, evil in full force or injustice. We could say that we are living out our Karma and that everything that is happening TO US, is because we are bad, we made bad choices, God is teaching us something that we are ignorant to or we’re being punished for something we have absolutely no clue about and the only one to blame is ourselves but I have to ask, is that true? Are you sure?

Could it be that you signed up for this life … you and God? Could it be that you agreed to have this experience?         agreed

You may ask, “Why the hell would I chose this life? Why the hell would I choose to experience this kind of pain or injustice?”

You chose it because you are an eternal being and this is a temporary place and time that really … means nothing in the bigger scheme of things.

Perhaps it’s like going through the haunted house, or the room of mirrors. Every corner you turn, you experience some new gory creature or image in a distorted mirror. They aren’t real. Nothing is real enough to cause permanent damage. If anything, they cause you to see things differently than they really are. Perhaps they are a disguise or a distraction to either enhance the experience or distract you from who you really are but … they are not real.

Maybe when you awaken from the illusion, you can see that you did design this life, the complexities, the challenges, the hardships, the pain as well as the joys, thrills, happiness, beautiful relationships, blessings and gifts and … love it all because YOU are the designer and creator of it all.

Perhaps now you can love yourself enough to trust that you designed it all, you are perfect, you are a creator and a designer of the most amazing life and an eternal being who has always been and will always be forever and ever!

Now … you can really start living! You can open your eyes and see just how amazing of a creator you are! Look at the people in your life! Look at watching-movie-in-3dyour surroundings, the weather, the landscape, the vastness from coast to coast, from here to outer space. You can see science in motion, creativity at its finest and most elaborate and experience the most extraordinary works of art! Truly, what you have created in this life is breathtaking!

Maybe you did design this life. Maybe you and God agreed and created together so that you could have one hell of an experience. After all, if you’ve always been in existence and you will continue on forever and ever, why not create an experience that extracted all of the elixir and vapors of a life that takes your breath away?

QuEstIOn EveRyThiNG!

How do you describe the ocean to someone who’s never seen it?

How do you describe the color blue to a blind person?

Sit with that for a minute … It’s hard, isn’t it?

Describe an ocean wave. Describe the shade of the color blue. How would you do it?

So now, maybe you formed your words and sentences, put it all together to the best of your ability, and described the details and now …

It’s up to the individual to get it. What if they don’t? Then what?

What if they get it, but the picture they form in their minds looks differently than the way you described it. Are they wrong? Are you right? How do you know? How do you know for sure? Are you sure?

The beautiful thing about our lives, the magic of our existence is we’re all here to have a personal experience. We gather information, file it in our infinite being, retrieve it when we need it and then we use that information as a filter to process life.

Do our perceptions and the way we process information make it truth or right … for everyone?

See, the thing about experiences and the way we process them is, no one else is going to take in the information and process it exactly the way we do. They are having their own, personal experience.

Does that make them wrong? Does that make them right? How do you know? How do you know for sure? Are you sure?

Here’s another one …

Describe the light.                                                                                                                                             light bulb

Describe the darkness.

Are you sure? Are you sure that is exactly how it is? How do you know for sure? Are you sure?

Is one good and one bad? How do you know? How do you know for sure?

Chances are, you are basing them on your own personal experience or using your filters to interpret information based on what someone else may have told you.

Are you getting this?!

Our Truth is our truth and no one else’s but … does that make it THE Truth?

We gather information from personal experiences, books we read, things we hear and perhaps stories on TV. The Bible says one thing, Buddha says another and your pastor says another. There are many different branches of the Christian faith each proclaiming their truth. Who’s right? Are any of them really right? How do you know? Are you sure?

These are shifting times. People are awakening so something so much bigger than we have accepted for ourselves and all of us are searching for some kind of meaning in it all but perhaps … there is no meaning in it at all. For the simple reason that we are all here for a rich experience, every experience is rich and different and there is no room for judgment.

Now what?! If we’re not judging, if we’re not able to point fingers and talk behind someone’s back, if we’re not able to tell someone all the answers and we’re not able to interject our thoughts and ideas because they really mean nothing except to ourselves, then what is the point in living?

Perhaps this is the beginning of awakening and understanding one’s self. Many teachers will use the coined phrase “Know thy Self”, in their teachings because if we do not know ourselves, then how can we possibly know what’s best for someone else? And guess what? When you know yourself, when you get intimate with your own beingness, when you fall in love what is truly you, you won’t care what others are doing. It won’t matter if they’re in alignment with your beliefs because you will finally be at peace with yourself and nothing else will matter. You can go about your business feeling free and alive and give everyone else permission to do just the same.

NOW YOU’RE LIVING!!! … Really living YOUR life! You are FREE!!!!!

Whew!!! Take a breath …

If you’ve read this far, if you’ve gotten to this point and not abandoned the message, you must be ready to receive peace in your life. You must be ready to shift your thoughts and ideas about what is really going on in this life; your life, and you’re ready to abandon the stuff that does not support your own, personal experience any longer.

Are you ready? Are you sure you’re ready?

You are cordially invited to … QuEstIOn EveRyThiNG!!!! Do not let some observation pass you by without asking yourself these questions;Question Everything!

What am I seeing?

How am I seeing it?

Is what I’m seeing REALLY what I think I’m seeing?

Is it true?

Am I sure it’s true?

How do I know for sure? Am I sure? How do I know I’m sure?

At some point in this questioning process you’ll soon discover that life is liquid. Everything shifts and changes and nothing stays the same. You’ll perceive one way one day and then it can shift. That is why you can read a passage in a book one day and get an internal message and then reread that passage again on another day and get another interpretation out of it. Life is liquid, ever shifting and ever changing.

Go with it!!! Stay fluid and allow yourself to move with the current. As sure as the stream changes directions and the flow shifts around the rocks and currents, so does life. When you arrive to this place free from judgment about what is, you question everything that you see, you’ll realize that it is all an illusion and nothing is real.

Let yourself be at peace with all that is and when you get there, when you stop fighting what you are perceiving based on your filtering system, then you are truly living YOUR life.

Then … it won’t matter whether the person who has never seen the ocean has an understanding of what they have not seen, or a different perception than what you perceive. You can give the blind person permission to see the color blue to the best of their ability and enjoy it … or not. If they cannot see it, if they cannot grasp what is being described to them, then that is okay too. You do not have to prove yourself to anyone because you know yourself and that is all that matters.

Give people permission to walk their path, talk their talk and do their own thing and perceive this life how they want. You do not have to take any kind of ownership in that because you are doing your own thing free from judgment because …

You are questioning EveRyThiNG!!! Your life is becoming more and more magical by the moment.

Touch the Garment of the Divine

“This is the calling of the soul. It is what you were created for. It is the current that runs through your veins that gives you life, purpose, passion and the drive to seek space and time to get there again and again. It beckons you with every breath you take, wafting its hypnotic essence to draw you close. It’s where you are healed; body, mind and spirit for you are free. It is the Garment of the Divine.”

 

“She came up behind him and touched the edge of his cloak, and immediately her bleeding stopped.” —Luke 8:44

She just knew if she could touch him, some place, somewhere … even if it was the hem of his garment, she would be healed.

What a moving and pivotal experience! To just know that somehow, some way, all it took was a touch and healing would take place, smacks passion right in the face.

In a crowd of people, how did she know she reached the garment? How did she know she touched the Garment of the Divine? After all, there were people all around, surrounding Jesus on all sides and yet, she reached and reached until she felt what she was searching for. In an instant, healing took place.

Oh the glory of the experience! How freeing, liberating and cleansing of that poignant moment of healing. The flow of the river of soothing peace and the cleansing of the soul that the infliction was set free! Bliss, refreshment and the quench of the thirst of parchment was soothed and finally, finally healing was hers.

How do we touch the Garment of the Divine? What healing do we seek and how will we know we’ve reached that place where healing grabs hold and we feel whole once again? We all seek this kind of healing. We all seek the Garment of the Divine; it is the place where healing takes place. We all have some aspect of our life whether it’s emotional, physical or spiritual, we crave that healing; we seek it night and day with the intention that we will not stop until we find it.

How powerful a journey this is!

For every one of us, at some point in our lives, we’ve experienced this touch. Perhaps that is why we continue to seek it. We seek it because we know it‘s real and we want more.

As a writer, an artist and a spiritual coach, my home, my healing, and my peace, is when I am in a space where I can express myself completely in my craft. It’s delicious and completely soul satisfying. I’ve touched it and tasted its sweet nectar. It is my passion and it is my place of unbridled freedom that invites me to soar far above all of the limitations and obstacles that can stand in the way. Time stands still when I’m here. I’m free and I’m completely healed.

What gifts do you have? What is the one thing that if time or money was not a factor, you would spend all your energy engaged in this space in your life? Can you recall a time when you were so engaged in this space, that time passed you by and you were not aware of it? Perhaps a glance at the clock shook you out of your hypnotic trance of bliss to remind you that time had passed.

This is the calling of the soul. It is what you were created for. It is the current that runs through your veins that gives you life, purpose, passion and the drive to seek space and time to get there again and again. It beckons you with every breath you take, wafting its hypnotic essence to draw you close. It’s where you are healed; body, mind and spirit for you are free. It is the Garment of the Divine.

Where and what is the Garment of the Divine for you? What do you seek? What gets the juices flowing through your veins that charge your system? What calls to you in your sleep? How does it call to you? How would you know if you grasped it, tasted it, felt it, absorbed it and accepted it as yours?

The young woman knew when she touched it; when her hand landed where her intention drew her. She knew the moment her hands grasped the delicate fabric that she had reached the very thing she sought. I must ask you, would you know if you touched it? What would it feel like? What feeling would you receive from it when you touched it? What do you envision that feeling of healing to be?

Perhaps you might interpret these questions as dreaming or even fantasy however if you truly seek healing, then perhaps they are questions worth answering. When we feel broken or out of sorts, we have a tendency to walk in a daze where we just react to the environment. These questions invite you to get clear about what you seek for your healing. They invite the soul to feel that healing before it has been accepted. What harm could it possibly cause to invite such thoughts and feelings … dreaming or fantasy?

Find your way through the crowd to the Divine. Find your way to your passion and purpose. Find that thing that steels your time and energy only to reward you with life, passion, purpose and healing. It’s the hypnotic essence of life that draws us in to heal. Free yourself and go there now!

When you get there, give yourself permission to embrace and absorb. Give yourself the gift of time; time to bask in the soothing, warm glow of healing. Create many moments to go there again and again and free yourself from the punishment of guilt that can rear its ugly head. Guilt will tell you that you are wasting too much time. Guilt will tell you that there are more productive things to do. Guilt will tell you that you are not worthy of engaging in such pleasurable places for the simple reason that it is just too pleasurable and that there are more important things to do.prayer and gratitude

Did the women in the crowd who touched the Garment of the Divine scold herself for scratching and crawling her way there only to reach her destination? Did she curse herself afterwards because there were more productive things to do and she wasted too much time scratching and crawling? After receiving her healing, did she feel guilty or apologize for lingering too long in the sweet embrace of healing?

It may sound silly, but there’s truth in these words. We live in a society that honors and worships productivity and success. We are valued by the things that we do that put success on a pedestal. We’ve designed our lives and conformed to the tasks that foster achievement and let creativity and passion get thrown aside because they are deemed “Unproductive”. Please hear these words!

Take a clue from the women in the story of Luke … scratch and crawl your way to the Garment of the Divine. Let passion be your driver and let the touch of the garment be your healer. Bask in the sweet ambrosia of healing. Refrain from cursing yourself for the moments and time spent in this space because it is a space of healing.

Do not halt its hypnotic pull. Take heed, set your pace and go! Scratch and crawl if you must and just know you’re on the path to healing and when you get there … when you touch the garment; savor, cherish and give thanks for you have arrived!

A Rich Experience

‘You are an eternal being. You have always been and always will be in existence. There is no beginning of you and there is no end to you. If that is the truth, then why are we really here?’ 

The tree has roots.

The tree has a trunk.

The tree has branches and …

The tree has leaves.

The tree is often a metaphor depicting our connection and relation to God/Spirit/Source; the roots that ground us, the trunk that holds us up, the branches that extend like the limbs of our body and the leaves that invite personal expression and connection to all that is.

Would you say that the trunk has to learn about being a trunk to perform its duty as part of the tree?

Do the leaves have to learn about being a leaf in order to function on the tree?

Do the roots of the tree have to learn about absorbing water and nutrients from the soil in order to grow?

Of course not!

So many times I have heard that we are here to ‘Learn’ lessons. Our purpose here is to ‘Learn’ from all of our experiences.

I question this truth that has been adopted by some. We all have an internal knowing to all things … I believe that. If that is true, then what is left to learn?

If the tree already knows how to be a tree; The roots, the trunk, the branches and the leaves, already know how to perform their innate being-ness as part of the tree I must ask;

Are we really here to learn? If we are all part of the energy and consciousness of God, then do we really need to learn anything?! If God is all knowing, all wisdom and all being, then we are as well and the notion that we still have to learn something more is confusing to me.

What if we’re here for the experience? What if we allowed ourselves to stay spiritually asleep in order to extract the immense juiciness of a colorful, vibrant and suspenseful life that would reflect; the people, the places, the circumstances, the experiences, the sights, smells, tastes, the loves and friendships, of our choosing?

What if our slumber invited us the grand and tumultuous experience that allowed us the opportunity to extract every drop of the elixir of life in order to embrace every facet of the experience from the pains to the joys?

Wouldn’t life be decadent and rich? Wouldn’t our experiences be perceived free and detached from the limitations we put on ourselves? Could we not see life for what it truly is as a temporary space in time to experience the thrill of the ride?!

You are an eternal being. You have always been and always will be in existence. There is no beginning of you and there is no end to you. If that is the truth, then why are we really here?

Perhaps we are here to embrace, A Rich Experience. There is no denying that this life with all of its complexities, exciting moments, personal relationships, fears, turbulent rides of joy and ecstasy as well as moments of rest, boredom, pain and torture, are all part of a unique experience.

We’ve all met fat people, skinny people, wealthy people, poor people, successful people, and unsuccessful people. We know those who are healthy and not so healthy. We know those who have active lifestyles and those who have sedentary lifestyles. We know those who have lived here and there, foreign or local and those who travel all over. There are those who are social beings and those who keep mostly to themselves. We know those who are angry and mean, those who are sweet and angelic, those who are sunny and bright, those who are talkative and those who are quiet and shy.

How rich!

Every one of us is experiencing something different than another. Every one of us has our own circumstances, relationships, hardships, blessings, pains, joys and … life!

How rich!

There is nothing wrong with you!

There is nothing that you have to fix!

There is nothing that needs to be changed!

There is nothing to run from, nothing to fight for and nothing to save or destroy!

Stand back and observe this. Look at how circumstances unfold. Look at the people and all of their colorful personalities. Look at all of the magnitudes of diversities that occur around the world. Look at the people and places that either evokes peace or war. Look at sickness and health and how the world adjusts to this. Look at all of the diverse languages and nationalities. Look at all of the dynamics in relationships, the places people chose to live or the activities they engage in or support. It’s a colorful array of choices and lifestyles.

How rich!

If we can grasp this; if we can stand back from our life, look at it for what it really is; an experience rather than a lesson that we can possibly fail, then perhaps we can all start living, truly living our own lives, knowing that we are eternal beings here for a rich experience … rather than beating ourselves up because we have not learned the lesson or judging someone else because their experience appears to be flawed or they appear to be flawed.

Whether we are indeed here to ‘Learn’ or for the ‘Rich’ experience, we can embrace the decadent and juicy moments that invite rich substance and ecstasy in experiences.

It truly is a rich life and we always have a choice on how we want to live it.

Whether you live it with joy or pain, happiness or sadness, bitterness or sweetness … in the end, it is your life.

I hope you embrace the Richness of it!

 

Whisper

‘We are all given some dose of intuition. We all have an innate ability to sense something deeper, much deeper than what the physical senses can detect. For some it’s very subtle and for others it’s very vibrant. As we walk this path, we are awakening to a time where we’re being invited to acknowledge this intuition and to trust it … deeply.’ 

You thought you might have heard … something … or maybe you’re sure you did.

You could have just imagined it, but how can you be sure?

Was there really something out of the corner of your eye that you saw … or was it your imagination?

How is it that you just know the answer to that question and yet, you don’t know how you know?

You had a vision of something a little crazy. Where the heck did that come from?

You felt really uncomfortable about a situation and yet you do not know why. Was it just a feeling you got?

For someone who’s beginning to awaken, these subtle occurrences can be dismissed as just crazy ideas or insignificant sensations. Do we dare tell anybody about them for fear of judgment? If they seem a little “Out there” for you, surely they may seem the same to others so, it’s best to keep them to yourself and yet … you cannot shake them because they are occurring more and more and there’s no denying the impact they are having on you.

I was visiting with my sister one afternoon, having a moment of laughter and giggles and in a flash, I had a vision of my mother smiling at both of us. Mom has been deceased for 3 years. How is it I could see her smiling? Was that smile really there or was it my imagination?

My sister’s husband passed away in June. The paramedics confiscated ALL of the medication that he had been taking as a standard procedure when they escorted him away. While traveling down the stairs one morning a few months later, she was abruptly stopped in her stride at the bottom of the stairs, to a pile of pills at the landing. She hadn’t seen these pills for months and right there, was a handful, on the floor, right in front of her. Where did they come from?

How many times I have turned around gently or quickly because I could feel a presence behind me … looking at me, only to be confirmed.

A dear friend of mine went in for a breast exam to have a lump examined. The lump proved to be benign. After completing the exam, she was released. The tech packed all of his equipment but before she left, she asked the tech, “Well, what about my inverted nipple?” After unpacking the equipment, he conducted a couple more tests and guess what? They found cancer. What would have happened if she didn’t ask?

I have another friend that has feathers appear to her regularly. She just knows it’s her dear friend that passed awhile back or her beloved grandma. She knows which one it is. She doesn’t question it … she just knows.

After steadily losing one tooth after another, one day while getting ready for the day, the word, “Scurvy” flashed into the mind of my Mom. At that moment, she knew why she was losing her teeth.

We are all given some dose of intuition. We all have an innate ability to sense something deeper, much deeper than what the physical senses can detect. For some it’s very subtle and for others it’s very vibrant. As we walk this path, we are awakening to a time where we’re being invited to acknowledge this intuition and to trust it … deeply.

If you’re unsure of your ability to sense, it might be helpful to pay attention to how you respond in communication. Do you say things like;

“I see what you mean”.

“I hear you!”

“I can feel that”.

“I know what you mean”.

Each of these statements is a hint at how you intuitively process information as it comes to you. If you can “See” something, your gift may be Clairvoyance. If you can “Hear”, what others are saying, perhaps your gift is Clairaudience. If you can “Feel” the message being given to you, perhaps your gift is Clairsentient and if you just “Know” what they are talking about, your gift may be Claircognizant.  The truth is however, we all possess all of these gifts, however we may have one gift that is more dominant than all of the others.

You are so wise, so wonderful and if you gave validation to all of the senses you experience, truly magic would abound in your life.

How do you know what to trust? How do you know what intuition is and what it is like to experience it? How do you know what is intuition and what is reflex, understanding or common sense? Perhaps they’re just unexplained occurrences that simply have no meaning.

When Spirit speaks through visions, feelings, hearing or just knowing, it can be subtle. It’s only when we acknowledge and trust these subtle “Hits” that our ability to interpret the information and proceed in faith, can manifest in our lives to the fullest extent. Trust the subtleties, trust the whisper, trust your feelings, trust the visions and when they gently “Hit” you, acknowledge them and allow them to guide you.

Like any gift or talent, in order for them to grow and develop, they must be exercised. If they are continually brushed aside or ignored, they will shut down. If you continually seek, ask questions and stay open to the invitation of expression, they will expand your world and everything in it. You will begin to awaken to all of the magic and perfection in the Universe. Things that used to be scary will become less and less a threat to you. You will begin to see people as the loving and perfect beings that they are. You will begin to experience more and more serendipity and joy in your life. You’ll find that you’ll more frequently be at the right place at the right time and that opportunity will constantly be presenting itself to you. Even if it doesn’t, you’ll be more and more at peace with what is in your life and refrain from feeling like a victim to life’s circumstances.

There are support materials available to the seeker. Here are a few that are beneficial but they are not the only ones. This is a personal path, so I invite you to seek out those things that resonate with you, embrace them and allow them to support you as you develop your intuitive skills. I also want to stress that everyone has their own gifts. Your talents will be special just for you just like the hairs on your head are like no others or the color of your eyes. You are unique and special. It will not support you to compare your talents with that of others but rather embrace what is natural and gifted to you.

  1. Books are very helpful. My favorite one is, Discover your Psychic Type by Sherrie Dillard. Sonja Choquette, Trust your Vibes, is another good one. Both of these authors have others books that will assist you as well.
  2. Gems, stones and crystals are a wonderful way to get in touch with your inner wisdom. Each stone and crystal carramethyst-cluster-1ies its own vibration and while there are books out there that will offer their supporting properties, I would invite you to gravitate to the ones that resonate with you … even if a book description doesn’t match the vibration you feel to the stone. Stones have a magic all their own and the power to bring comfort, insight, creativity, awakening and healing.    http://www.spiralsoflight.com/product/amethyst-double-cluster/
  3. Taking a walk in any kind of nature whether it’s in the mountains, the beach, the desert, the sun, the wind, the rain or the snow, there’s a subtle melody and movement to all of nature and when you are alone in this place, your senses are heightened.
  4. Carving out a space of time in your day to meditate and/or pray, is a powerful, powerful activity that allows you to get in touch with yourself, God and your higher power. You have an inner voice that beckons to speak and be heard and if you’re always engaged in activity, on the go, tasking, working, conversing and even exercising, you may miss the wisdom that is being imparted to you. Just like showering, eating, reading, exercising, working or playing, prayer and meditation invites a space and time in your day to stop, plug in and connect. Prayer and meditation fosters insight and conversation with God and our higher self that will impart our own truth. You are so wise and all knowing. Give yourself time and space to get in touch with that.

Intuition is gentle, loving, nurturing, compassionate and intent on showing you the way. Acknowledging the “Hits”, the “Whispers” and the subtle nudges and leadings will guide you along your path and invite you to live for your highest good and purpose. Living our purpose brings us to a space of peace, love, forgiveness and gratitude. When we are here, we are in heaven. Listen to the whisper, explore your gifts and find your home in your heaven.